Again and again

I kinda keep doing this thing. The thing where I promise to start writing on my blog again and then I end up forgetting about it. For over 6 motnhs. Sorry. 

But needless to say, I needed the break. The last year, I have gone through a lot of different stuff that has changed me, just a tiny bit. I ended 2013 with a new attitude towards life. I do not know what happened, but one day I woke up and decided to stop torturing my body and start trating my body right. Did I do that? Sort of. 

The thing is, that sometimes when you have lived with an eating disorder or just generally not allowing yourself to enjoy specific kinds of foods, well, then you may end up going crazy in them. And that is exactly what I did. I have spend the last 3 years of my life restricting myself and so of course I would enjoy them!

The only problem is, that when you start eating a lot more than you are used to, you put on weight. Now, for me, it was a mix of birth control and a new found appetite that made me put on around 20 pounds. Yes, you heard me. 20 pounds!! 

The 20 pounds are not as bad as they sound. Because I was on the edge of being underweight, the 20 pounds made my body act normal again, and I actually feel better now. And the best thing of it all? I have boobs!!!! 

Yep, you read it. I have not been able to fit my normal bra for over 2 years. And it makes sense since I lost 13 pounds in the beginning of gymnasium. 

The thing is, eating disorders are a lifelong battle. I still have bad days. But in the beginning of my second year it was horrible. I thought I could control it, instead I lost it. I do not even want to look at my pictures from christmas. I look like a skeleton  in those pictures. 

But I have started to eat healthier again. I got another type of birthcontrol that does not make me a bottomless food craver! (TMI??)

I am happy and I feel like everything is how it is supposed to be. I basically could not ask for any more. 

- Amalie

A much needed life update!

The last 2 and half months have been some tough ones. So much has happened and I don´t know where to begin. But here is a huge life update for all of you!

August:

So in August I went to Crete, which for those of you who has never been there; GO!!! It was absolutely amazing and the entire trip was awesome. I went for a week, the first couple of days we went out discovering town and eating yummy local food!

The last couple of days, I could tell I was looking forward to going home. My brother got food poisining and he was awful, which made the flight back home a living hell for him. So when we arrived at Kastrup airport, we were all looking at each other tired, and decided for McDonalds on the way back home. 

But beside that, it was definitly the best summer I have ever had and I will never forget it. 

September:

So september was all about school. I have never had so many assignments and homework like I did that month. And that was definitly showing on my skin. I had the worst break-out in my spot free skin-history.

October:

But after what seemed like forever, I finally had a week off and having a week off means no school work, sleeping past 9 AM and eating lots of delicious food. But not only did I manage to sleep past 9 (which is quite dificoult for me) I also managed to go shopping and actually coming home with important, and much needed clothes. Of course I couldn´t go home without a few beauty and skin care bits but we won´t tell anyone about that...

December:
And then December hit! Wow, is it already that time of the year?! It is going way too fast for my liking. But I will admit, it is my favorite holiday and I cannot wait to celebrate Christmas! I have also decided to get back into making youtube videos, so we´ll see how that goes. Stay tuned!

-Amalie